life has been incredibly awesome. me and lauren have been hanging out a lot and that's sweet. i love dan more than a lot of things, it's actually really weird. we're so good together and i really couldn't care less what anyone has to say about it. he's going to get a better job and we're going to live together. that is final. me and brittany don't hang out much anymore. it sucks but it doesn't really phase me much anymore. i can only take so much before i'm done, and i'm done. i'm not not hanging out with her because of dan, i'm not because the desire to is small after 5 months of matt matt matt. i got my graduation outfit all set and im very excited. not to walk or anything but just to be done and start my damn life out of school. my aprenticeship starts the week after i graduate i'm pretty sure. i've decided to take some classes at tcc at least online or something, just so i keep up with school but dont get overwhelmed. i might be getting my mom's car for a couple months or so until i save up some money since she never drives hers. it's a sweet ass car and it's about time she does something sweet for me. i know i should take advantage of it and everyone is telling me i should but it's hard to take a fucking car...it's not a high five...it's a CAR. my dad is in iraq and will be for a long ass time still. i never thought that would really upset me, i love him but really how often do i see him. he's not even legally my dad anymore i think, and he's definitely not biological..but there is always a connection with people like that. i just miss the fact that i could go see him whenever i want. who knows what it is but i have been a wreck since he left. everything is marvelous though. graduation night me and all the girls are going to a fancy dress up dinner at la galleria. im very very very excited. i love life, the end.